sacred space for the spirit

Heart of Faerie literally fell off the wall on me, so I guess I'll do a pull.

This has been the messiest, most difficult shuffle of my life. Many more shuffles than usual until feeling ready. The actual deck didn't want to move nicely. In the end I did a few flip the deck over and shuffle face up until the cards that wanted to be picked were on top. The third card was third card down from the usual top. Weirdest shuffle of the year. Calling it now.

The Queen of Passage. The Speaker of Truth. Nameless card with a bunch of little mushroom guys.

I'm going to replace this deck with a random pack of cards one of these days. (This is a fond threat.)

Queen of Passage- surrender/transition/trust. inevitability of change. ask for help during times of transition. keep going.

Speaker of Truth- trust/acceptance/open heart. A "face" card and the second one talking about trust. hearing truth sometimes hurts. (truth plus lies equals lies.)

-> clarifying card - cut the deck and grabbed one -> Queen of Shadows - introspection / acknowledgement / balance. stop and look. whole self not just parts. what's being neglected? it's another truth card.

nameless little mushroom guys - a bunch of little mushroom guys hanging out. most of them look friendly. one has it's hands spread in possible invitation.

So what I'm getting from this is seek truth, look into the shadows and bring things in the light, and hang out with some weird little guys. ... Sure.

Thank you so much deck for insisting on being read, fighting the actual physical parts of reading, and then saying the same thing three different ways.

"No this is my shirt. We cannot share the shirt. Stop hitting my face with your tail." <- conversation I am currently having with Radar (who does not know what she wants in this moment)

I fell over for a while recovering from Mardi Gras. Mostly physically, but also emotionally. It's also the season to swap from heat to AC every other day and then back again so my head has been hurting. Screen time has been limited. Klinger is happy about all the couch cuddles.

Three things make a post!

1. The BAFTAs racism thing. Jordan and Lindo shouldn't have had to hear it. I can't imagine how awful it was to hear that on a night that should have been about celebrating the cultural juggernaut Sinners is and the work that went into it.

Davidson had taken steps to limit his impact on the show. (Sat 41 rows back. Asked that his tics be edited out of the broadcast.) The BBC purposefully putting a mic on Davidson to make sure the presenters heard the slurs he couldn't help saying was shitty. (He left when he realized there was a microphone near him.) The show was recorded two hours in advance and several other slurs Davidson said were cut, leaving that one in was hurtful and harmful to many people.

This was handled in such a disrespectful way towards everyone involved. I think the theory that it was done on purpose to drum up views is right. The BBC knew Davidson was going to say horrible things (he can't help it) and chose the worst one to leave in.

2. Mom is sick and has "a cold" that has laid her out for a week. No she hasn't tested for anything. It's just "a cold". She hasn't sought medical help even though it's lasting longer than normal. She's arguing about taking OTC medication to help. This is some "offer it up" bullshit that's worse than usual because it's Lent. (Suffering will not make you holy. Take the fucking meds.)

3. I got some of the water activated eyeliners from HoloGrave. They all passed the allergy test (put on arm and wait for a few hours). I guess I'll paint on my face for enrichment some in the near future.

3b. My comfy pants from Lady Epi came in hours ago and are currently in the wash. Yay for comfy pants.

Radar has settled down for lap!cat! time and I'm out of words.